reading

i want to cry. i almost am. was writing it. was getting better.

lost it all again. i may have it saved somewhere else.
if i don't, i did not learn my lesson.

if i don't, i am not re-writing it. and i might cry.

working on it

i am working on re-writing that blog i lost. i have it "done" but it pales in comparison. like if i would have been graded, the first one would be a 99% and this one would be a 60%.

:(

i'll post it sometime, though.

ode to a butterscotch

butterscotch i love you
i ate four of you just now
i even like your wrapper

i want to cream you into a pudding and eat you with a small spoon.

you leave a furry film on my teeth.

sick to my stomach

i just wrote my favorite post ever. maybe some of my favorite words.

and this website LOST IT. i tried saving it, and it said there was a problem. i didn't even think of CTRL+C.

and then i hit PUBLISH POST. it closed the page, and lost it.

i want to cry  :(

so...

i have a recently divorced girlfriend. she works in a small cafe, and today the health inspector came by to inspect. my friend is about 30; he's well over 50. he did a half-way inspection, and then asked for her number. and said they should go to tunica some weekend. i am laughing so hard right now. but i told her to go for it!

i will

i will not look in the mirror everytime i pass one.
i will not compare myself to others.
i will think about my beauty and my fitness more than i think about my fat
i will try to dress up once a week, including make-up.

i will smile more often, even when i don't feel like smiling.
i will take time to be sad, and allow myself to cry

i will spend less money on frivilous and fleeting things (out to eat) and save more

i will remember that sleeping in instead of some form of morning exercise makes me feel more low than rested.

i will make smart food choices that make my body and soul feel better.
i will limit dairy, as it makes me sick, and is a toxin to my body.
i will allow myself indulgent treats, only sometimes, and savor every bite.
i will spend more time writing letters, doing crafts, painting, and reading at home with a cup of tea.
i will remember that these things make me truly happy.

i will fix my eyes on Jesus.
i will glorify the LORD.
i will spend time reading His words He wrote for me.

i will learn to love my job, and not allow my pride to surface.
i will consider others better than myself.


i will forget (and not regret) the past, and strive toward what is ahead.

God will reveal my calling to me one day.

i will pray for my husband, selflessly, more often.

i will learn to love myself again.
i will allow my soul to sing.

oh!

oh! i've blogged and left out pictures...if i had a camera i would give you some real-life.
for now, 3 recommendations...

CURRENTLY READING




 The story of a relative who fled Lithiuania inspired Sepetys to write this (teen) historical fiction novel. Chilling and educational, you'll wait with angst to turn each page. seriously.



COULD WATCH ONCE A MONTH:


                    




                                                                                                                      BRIGHT STAR


heart-breaking, sweet love stories. queen victoria. john keats. gorgeous films (also PG so could watch them with your kids!)